__ blown

hmm.
bored.
friday's SS and eng.
monday's mep i think.
this sat got flag day.
but im so tired.
sleepy.
not enough sleep.

and im missing youu. ))=


oh wells.
oh look!
he made me this. ((((=

so sweet aite?



love it mann.



love you fattie. (=

__ scars

I tear my heart open, I sew myself shut
My weakness is that I care too much
My scars remind me that the past is real
I tear my heart open just to feel

Drunk and I'm feeling down
and I just wanna be alone
I'm pissed cause you came around
Why don't you just go home
Cause you channeled all your pain
and I can't help you fix yourself
Your making me insane
All I can say is

I tear my heart open, I sew myself shut
My weakness is that I care too much
And our scars remind us that the past is real
I tear my heart open just to feel

I tried to help you once
Against my own advice
I saw you going down
But you never realized
That you're drowning in the water
So I offered you my hand
Compassion's in my nature
Tonight is our last dance

I tear my heart open, I sew myself shut
My weakness is that I care too much
And our scars remind us that the past is real
I tear my heart open just to feel

I'm drunk and I'm feeling down
and I just wanna be alone
You shouldn't ever came around
Why don't you just go home?
Cause your drowning in the water
and I tried to grab your hand
and I left my heart open
but you didn't understand
but you didn't understand
You fix yourself

I can't help you fix yourself
But at least I can say I tried
I'm sorry but I gotta move on with my own life
I can't help you fix yourself
But at least I can say I tried
I'm sorry but I gotta move on with my own life

I tear my heart open, I sew myself shut
My weakness is that I care too much
And our scars remind us that the past is real
I tear my heart open just to feel

I tear my heart open, I sew myself shut
My weakness is that I care too much
And our scars remind us that the past is real
I tear my heart open just to feel.


i wish i could let go of you.
ive tried.
but i cant.
im helpless.
i dont care abt anything else.
all i know is that
i love you

__ emotions

its over.
all over.
im glad to have known you all.
glad to have been a team with you all.
glad to have played with you all.
i have no regrets.
love you all.
just wish we'd always be a team.
but i'll be fine.




to shaun :: thanks bro. thanks for trying to cheer me up. i love you. (= ur star player. hahah. hugs hugs hugs!!!

__ bitch

bitch

__ sorry

im so sorry.
im sorry, girl.



im bad wif words.
and i know it.


i love you too much to let go.




sorry.

__ new beginning

had rehearsal today. at tct magicbox. i realized that i hate the piano so so bad! i feel like throwing it out of the window. i realie dont like it at all. and i asked del to let me play the guit, and she said no. fine. sighh. then when i told her i was giving up on mep, cos i hated the piano, she said it was lame. hey look. to you, it may be lame. but to me, its my whole life.
cried while thinking abt it. daddy comforted me. and i agree wif wat he said. God is my audience. and He willl give me the strength to go on, no matter how hard it is.

Father, im giving myself to you.

please take me and mold me

into the person you want me to be.

change me inside out

let me live for you

i want to shine for you.

this saturday.

i will play well.

the best i can.

not for anyone.

but You.

thanks daddy. ((= thanks for oways being there when i need you. thanks for listening to all my nonsense. thanks for accepting me for who i am. i love you.

to [you]:: im sorry i hurt you. i just care for you. even if you dont believe me. its just that, i feel that you dont want to mix wif me and vann anymore. thats why we kept our distance. but i love you. i am sure i do. i will nvr forget the times we had together. you laughing at me and AHEMS. my dear. even if u choose to hate me. i wont hate you. you are my dearest sister. and nothing will change that. i wish u could cme back to church. and we could shine together for the Lord. i realie do. and i am meaning every word i say.